I am back!

Ok, ok, again I took a big break with this blog. Remember how I said, I don't write that much when I am happy and busy. Winter is gone and the weather is already done with spring and I am eating cherries from our cherry tree. :). I also got some new films developed, so be prepared to see some new photos hopefully soon. You know how you make so much promises to yourself and than you don't keep them, because you know you are not going to be too angry at yourself. I do a lot. Thousand times I swear to myself to have healthier lifestyle, do assignmets on time, not night before due date and contact old friends more with letters and emails... I need to start promising this to someone else, so I have bigger motivation to keep promise. :D

These are some from that time we all thought spring is here, before so much snowing and depressions

                          

                                All photos by me. Camera. Lubitel 2. Film. Lomography CN 400.

these things take time

Ziegfield Follies, photo by Alfred Cheney Johnston, 1920s

 These are the days when we wait for tomorrow when the sun is shining and everything is ok. I have to say, I am definitelly a summer child. I never get depressed when I can take my bike for a ride in the sunshine. This year has a very hounted mood. Seriously listen to song at the end, the melody  reminds me of 2013 and our 6 month long winter. I hope for some positive motivation for you and me.

Taken by me. Camera. Lubitel 2, Film. Lomography CN 400. 

first 3 photos randomly from tumblr.

you gave me mud and i made gold

picture form my "lecture notebook"

“When you plant lettuce, if it does not grow well, you don’t blame the lettuce. You look into the reasons it is not doing well. It may need fertilizer, or more 
water, or less sun. You never blame the lettuce. Yet if we have problems with our friends or our family, we blame the other person. But if we know how to take care of them, they will grow well, like lettuce. Blaming has no positive effect at all, nor does trying to persuade using reason and arguments. That is my experience. No blame, no reasoning, no argument, just understanding. If you understand, and you show that you understand, you can love, and the situation will change.”

—	Thich Nhat Hanh

Spring

Spring is slowly coming and I still didn't upload all the photos from fall! I am doing good, procrastinating a lot and than all mad at myself going to bed for an hour or not at all. But going to classes without having important assignments is unthinkable, so I suffer... At least I feel like the hardworker I am not :D. This song is pretty nice. I went to a one day trip to Budapest with my family last weekend in the coldest weather and I love that city. (Which I loved all the big cities I've been to except for Paris, don't ask why...) Definitelly have to go back in summer! And some day to Paris too, since last time was when I was 13 and I would love to change my opinion about it. I have so many travel plans, that if I complete it all in my life I am a boss.

All Photos by me. Camera: Zorki 4. Film: Kodak Gold 200

geometric.

crystal necklace. crystal rings. terrarium. shelf. gramophone. clutch. vase. cabinet.

I love geometric patterns and structures! For a long time I was fascinated by terrariums made of fragile structure for plants or crystals. Here is some collection of things I found mainly on Artnau. I like to draw these geometric patterns with ink pen on lectures or in bus and maybe the day will come when I put them on this blog. :) And of course there is picture of Frida, just because.. 

And of course here is my collection of brutally geometric things along with my snack. Its not much which I now realize has to chage quick! The paper model was assignment for one class last semester, which we called mindfuck, because if you look at it long enough you get a headache and your brain gets blown away. Nice thing to put above my bed I thought. Than there is a watch from Swatch and analog camera form Lomography called La Sardina. 

Photo by me.

good times, bad times

I want to liten to this and take a night drive in car, everything dark and music loud! Or like last summer, on a sailboat at night in middle of nowhere, no civilization around, lights off and rock music on! Oh, good times, good times.. 

Pictures from here.

Rollercoaster

Philosophy of buddhism advices people not to feel too strong emotions, to keep it leveled, because after great heights there always is huge drops. I think I am the complete opposite of this. My emotions remind me a ride on rollercoaster. Lot of times so euphoric, I could rule the world and there is nothing that could ever stop me. But than for a little while it always shifts for 180° and I diagnose myself secretly with depression. I have lump in my throat and can't seem to find any reason to be happy. I try to fight it and search my mind for anything that made me so happy before, but everything is grey and ridiculous. I think about all the people I know and I feel like none of them really care about me. As I am reading this it seams like I have problems.. But really it's worth everything there is to feel so happy and powerful. Better than numb, better to live than to just wait for death... 

Photos by me. October 2012. Camera: Zorki 4. Film: Kodak Gold 200